December 6, 2007


I
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I can confess here.
I have nothing to fear.
Whenever I have felt love,
I have cried pearly tears.


Choked with emotion,
Warm fogginess before me,
And nothing else but,
The feeling I am loved….


And then I feel,
I can never thank them,
Who made me feel such joy…


Just coz I am loving ME…..
For what I am…..


All I can do is,
Be good to them,
And be loving to them,
Every moment of the year.


But alas,
My goodness,
Doesn’t last.


Alas I don’t
Love them enuff back.


Alas I lose my loving self,
Only to discover it,
After Someone makes me Love Myself,
All over again……..
II
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I want that Someone to be Me,
I don’t wish to depend,
On Anybody other…….

But alas,
I have not yet reached,
That state of finality……….

I will reach there,
There is no doubt,
In my mind.

It’s the beauty of this journey…..
Which seems to be,
Infinitely interesting.

But hey,
Could it be more fulfilling,
Than the destination itself would be………..?

I have no answer as of now,
To this puzzling question………..:)

5 comments:

  1. Alas I lose my loving self,
    Only to discover it,
    After Someone makes me Love Myself,
    All over again……..

    WOW !!! ... i cant stay i understand ... may be u even don't understand it ..

    But hey,
    Could it be more fulfilling,
    Than the destination itself would be………..?

    hehe mat IRONY of ur life ...
    why do u chase the goose ?? to enjoy chasing or to catch the goose ??? it varies from person to person ...

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  2. I generally abstain from reading long poems...but i read this one...twice..'coz i found traces of myself in it...i love someone but at the end of it all i realise that i had been in love with
    MYSELF all the way...

    So if at all i am to fall in love with anyone else..then that person has to be completely like me...because i am so much immersed in self love...

    and with things as haywire as this
    love is an impossibility!

    i hav sumthin more to say

    when we write...we get to know more about ourselves...

    but at times i get to know myself better when i read something that someone else has written...This poem of yours...is one such rare jewel..that has revealed more about myself to me..so thank you!

    PS: sorry if reading this comment has consumed more of ur time :P

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  3. @ Kalu

    Well I exactly understand each line of it........:)..........i lov chasing d goose more..probably.........:P

    @ Wildflower

    U r an absolute delight 2 read, b it anywher....:)...yes self-indulgent ppl lov demselves so mch dat it's tough for dem 2 lov sum1 els.....:)...........u r right...lov is almost lik an impossibility for dem...........& i absolutely com under dat..............:P
    ur comments r alwez eagerly awaited....d longer dey r...d better........:D

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  4. Like those pearly tears this piece of yours is also pearly.

    The most touching lines are the most truthful ones . :)

    Alas I lose my loving self,
    Only to discover it,
    After Someone makes me Love Myself,
    All over again

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  5. hey there....i jst went through ur blog,by chance as i was rummaging through ur profile in orkut,i hope u dnt mind dat..if u do..i cant help dat....do u perceive ur lyf 2b gloomy....da pic of a female in a dark shades n a hint of tear, reminds of da days wen da rain falls frm afternoon to dusk, creating a hue wich confuses wid feelings bordering between hatred n awe.....though during those days it was nt da silhoutte,rather da feelin dat one cricket playin afternoon was lost bcoz of natures whim...n dis really freaked me out...n ur words reminded me those old past which kind clings on 2 ur skin lik stains of coffee on a cotton fabric....u probably stay in chennai so u must be knwin hw imp a metaphor da coffee is !!! gawd....i dnt knw why im sayin dis...bt ur poems stirred da ghost's of da days past......

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